Sometimes the sexiest thing is not
getting our own way! Perverse, but true! The province of Uranus,
and possibly Neptune in difficult aspect. For these two planets are
concerned with advancement by difficult lessons, or even the 'school
of hard knocks' … although Neptune will be less obvious in
terms of where the opposition comes, or how the adversity applies.
One of the most universally appealing
urges is to buck the system, defy convention or fly in the face of
strong decisions (and their makers) in large ways, transpersonal ways
or small and more innocuous ways. Whether it is with the people who
employ us, or with our loved ones or closest of intimates. When
someone says 'no' there is an instant urge to take flight or to
fight. To back off, close the door, or to stand our ground and do
battle – either directly or subtly. The adrenaline and the blood
pressure must be involved somewhere. The hormones will closely
follow. And for some people the power-rush of having to confront,
cross the line, is too thrilling for words. In some cases even the
acceptance of the stronger force of disappointment holds a powerful
surge of emotion. If we are starved of emotional attention we will
court these incidents, and the results can be almost academic next to
the energy felt along the way. Rampant and flagrant confrontation in
the face of opposition! Or overwhelming acceptance of defeat! These
are very piquant experiences and after an initial surge of reaction
in some form the body and mind will give way to highly charged
feelings. This is what we are after, and some of us are emotional
junkies, we cannot get enough of the stuff. It feeds us like tobacco
or alcohol or sugar. It stimulates parts other smoother moods cannot
reach.
It's the basis of a lot of literature,
classical and pulp, modern and otherwise. It cannot be denied that
the existence of conflict and the effort and energy embroiled in it
are one of the prime ingredients of stimulating life. If we are not
challenged we may challenge ourselves. Some of us become addicted to
it. If it involves going up against circumstances, situations and
people where we may lose face, power or ground it is gris to the mill. Because within it all at some point someone will tell us no, in
differing ways, using differing means of expression. The addiction
to playing with it or dicing with the odds is delicious. If things
go too much in our favour for too long we become jaded. Sated with
excess, or success.
It can happen that there are past
lifetimes that have been unquestioningly filled with privilege and
favour, or lifetimes of the opposite. Both of these protracted
experiences will impress the psyche and the cellular memory with the
fascination for challenge. With the need for power games and
scenarios involving extreme decisions of will and spirit - our own or
others. We are not talking the kind of dilemmas in which integrity
dictates we win because we have campaigns with serious moral issues
at stake, or vital life challenges. These are entirely different in
essence and outline.
But on the more frivolous side of life
there is a titillation like no other in flirting with chance, and the
sexiest thing can be not knowing when or whether we will get out own
way.
Our everyday life from cradle to grave
is filled with points of conflict, and points of lack ….
expectation through to fulfilment. We are taught in our society to
go for it, to achieve, to conquer the adversity of being denied.
Obviously we will seek contrast, it is human nature. Contrast tells
us who we are, what we are striving for and what is worthwhile. The
contrast between succeeding and being denied is a complex matter,
filled with meat for our emotions to experience, or for us to
experience our emotions. Amid all that is the knowledge that there
is something greater than us, some force which might or might not
grant us favour. Might or might not know better. Whether it comes
in the form of another person or an impersonal and arbitrary
situation. We do not always know, and we should not always know,
what we will meet on the road to self enhancement, for much self
development is based on the need to overcome the base level of our
own negative fears and feelings. And one of the sexiest things is to
feel we are moving and growing and giving everything we have to life.
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